There is a lot about life that I can't explain or even begin to understand. I usually at least try, or pretend that I understand, but that's really only because I like for everything to be logical and make sense. The truth is: I have no idea.
I have heard a lot of stories about people last week. It was a little strange, but I heard stories about people who had terrible life experiences where they just couldn't handle it and they ended up having panic attacks, or lashing out, or having a mental breakdown. All of these stories came from different people. I heard them all last week, which happened to be an absolutely terrible and odd week all together for me, personally. I have been through a lot of stressful life experiences (wedding) and have yet to lose complete control. I have come to the conclusion that it is because of my problem solving skills. A certain few people would disagree with this, but I still say this is the fine line between me and a breakdown. When I get stressed out, my mind goes into overdrive and I spend a lot of time over-analyzing the situation and trying to think of ways to make the situation better. I usually come up with something at least that will help me get through (retail therapy).
People deal with life situations differently. I do not look down on anyone who suffers from a panic attack or mental breakdown. Those are two very real, very serious conditions. Many times these occur as a result, or in the process of making a big, life changing decision. It's hard. I am on the brink of making many very large, important, life changing, decisions myself. That's what happens when you grow up (or so I've heard). I don't like it. I am just now starting a life with my new husband and we are trying to sort through all of these decisions. What makes these decisions easier is if we have full support from our family and friends. I know that in some scenarios, we may not all be on the same page and we may have bumps in the road, but we are going to make these decisions with the best of our ability.
I know that I am lame, but something reminded me of Pocahontas today. It was one of my favorite movies as a child and my room was once decorated in that theme (getting more and more lame, I know). I remember this song from the movie and I want to share the lyrics because I love it! In case you still were not convinced of me being lame this will; I knew all the words to this song without looking it up. ;-)
Pocahontas' Father: "Even the wild mountain stream must someday join the big river . As the river cuts its path, though the river, proud and strong, he will choose the smoothest course. That's why rivers live so long. They're steady, as the steady beating drum."
Pocahontas: "He wants me to be steady like the river, but it's not steady at all. What i love about rivers is that you can't step in the same river twice. The water's always changing always flowing. But people, I guess can't live like that. We all must pay a price to be safe we lose our chance of ever knowing what's around the river bend. Should I chose the smoothest course, steady as the beating drum, should I marry Kocoum, is all my dreaming at an end...or do you still wait for me dream giver just around the river bend. "
Scary? Yes! I still feel like it's inspirational. Decisions are hard sometimes and sometimes your microwave safe plate breaks in the microwave, but instead of complaining, freaking out, or trying to figure out why (yeah I googled it...I have a problem) just except the situation and move on with what you have. There will be unfavorable life situations that we have no control over but there may be something really great just around the river bend. :-)
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